FULL HEART

A few years ago, my wife Julie and I (along with Ben and Jackie, our good friends) moved to Nashville so that Ben and I could pursue a career in songwriting and music ministry. We left our home in the Northwest without really having any idea what we were getting into … no jobs, no place to live … and no clue how to get our songs heard.

Looking back, it’s clear that we were truly, profoundly dumb. What kind of idiots move 2000 miles across country without a plan for income and housing? Did we think that the music industry would announce our arrival with red carpet and trumpet fanfare? Funny how that never did happen…

At one point – while searching for work and someplace to live – we stayed for a few days with some friends in their apartment. One morning, I thought I smelled smoke. Sure enough, the apartment had caught on fire and the whole building nearly burned to the ground. So now – still with no jobs – both we and our Nashville friends had to find another place to crash for awhile. And we were starting to realize that we still had no idea how to get started in the music biz.

The crazy thing was that, although I really felt pretty lost and a bit hopeless at that time, there was this undercurrent of peace that I felt; a strange sense of certainty that this was where we were supposed to be.

And that night I wrote the following words:

Under the silver moon, and in the still of night
My eyes cannot find You, but I feel Your hand in mine
And I have a full, full heart

I don’t know how I would navigate through life without Jesus. Knowing that, although “my eyes cannot find” God sometimes, He has never gone AWOL, He never will forsake us, never give up on us. This hope is a powerful thing, and it makes such a difference – if we can just remember it!

And we eventually found work, got an apartment, started writing, recording and doing the general business of music ministry. Never “made it big” or anything, but I look back with such gratitude for the strange little path that unfolded for us.

And I have a full, full heart.

FULL HEART

Under the silver moon, and in the still of night
My eyes cannot find You, but I feel Your hand in mine
And I have a full, full heart

Here in this barren place, I find there are no words
To tell of this sweet taste – the water for my thirst
I have a full, full heart

In this season of waiting
I put my faith in
One hope that will burn bright even in the dark
For Your love has embraced me
And in all that I’m facing
I have a full heart

Under the bridge of dreams, I’m waiting for my turn
To sail across the deep into those arms of Yours
I have a full, full heart

So in the face of doubt, under this blackened sky
Hope leaves a candle out to guide me through the night
I have a full, full heart

In this season of waiting
I put my faith in
One hope that will burn bright even in the dark
For Your love has embraced me
And in all that I’m facing
I have a full heart

Oh, now I have found what I’ve been looking for
This emptiness You have filled forever more

In this season of waiting
I put my faith in
One hope that will burn bright even in the dark
For Your love has embraced me
And in all that I’m facing
I have a full heart
For Your love has embraced me
And in all that I’m facing
I have a full, full heart

words and music by Scott C. Riggan and Benjamin D. Bauman
(c) 2005 Pleasantview Music (ASCAP)

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8 Responses to FULL HEART

  1. Kathy Dennis says:

    Scott, I just love this blog entry because it reminds me of when Bill and I moved to Idaho from California in 1994. Neither of us had jobs and we moved to a rental in Eagle sight unseen; rented for us by our cousin from Emmett. We also had 2 teenagers in tow who were under-whelmed to move away from friends and “civilization”. But God definitely has a plan and it’s been quite a ride. I am so glad you you went to Nashville – it is definately part of who you are – a very telented musician and an awesome fisher of men for Christ!

  2. Keith Mohr says:

    Wonderful testimony, Scott! I love how the Lord makes lemonade from our lemons. Tastes so good:)

  3. Russell Campbell says:

    We need more songs that have this kind of realistic hopefulness – as opposed to more of the shallow “it’s all going to be alright because Jesus loves me” kind of stuff that Christian music specializes in. Your song admits hardship and trial and digs into what real hope looks like. Bravo!

  4. Vin Lewis says:

    Great song! I love that whole CD, but this is one of my favorites.

  5. Angela says:

    Oh, that’s just beautiful. I think it was brave to make the move you did. Maybe a little naive, but still. And you got a great song out of it!!

  6. kathleen dunagan says:

    This song touches me to the depths of my soul….it makes me peaceful and describes the joy I feel for the Lord…it brings me to that place even when I am not there at the moment. Thank you for the lyrics and the melody…please write more.

  7. Bart Peters says:

    I’ve been there, man. The flip side of this is when you’re on the path that seems right but God just doesn’t give you a peace about it. When you are in the will of Almighty God you can endure severe hardship with peace because you know He’s got you in His hands and it’s all okay.

  8. m cathleen heximer says:

    When I move to Boise and went to Eagle Christian Church 2005 or so I fell in love with you and your music I had to bring glory and another CD that you had made that I got it Church after I moved up to Anacortes Washington the next year I could never find a church that I like because you weren’t there. Now it’s been well over 10 years and I have found you again through FB. Thank you so much I need to be able to know how where to buy your CDs. I won’t make it to your concert in Olympia I was in A3 car pile-up accident and I’m in California right now because of the doctors that I need. But it is my goal my dream my desire to one day make it to a concert of yours. I was always so blessed to be there at the Eagle Christian Church when you would perform for us and when we would have concerts I spoke to you a few times I feel like I know you but of course I know I don’t. Your music Ministry has gotten me through so many tough times with this is to for CDs from the church. Those CDs are packed away now and I don’t know where they are but I have been sharing on messenger some of your music to my friends as it will only let me post this song to fb. I am anxious to hear all your new songs. Once again your music has gotten me through good times and bad. You are such a blessing in our lives thank you so much

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